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I hate editing photos. I stole this kinda bold the first line from donald miller’s blog. I kinda like it…I haven’t read a word of his work but I hear he’s real good. Anyway. I started to edit a bunch of photos of my self. That’s kinda pretentious right.  Well I’m writing my “about m”e or “not writing.” I’m going about it a little different hence the pictures. It will all come together.  Eric the guy who’s a whole lot better than I am at taking, editing, and everything in between took some photos for me.  I started tonight and realized dang this is a lot of photos to go through. I’ll keep working on it. That’s why the picture is below.  This is a little taste of what I’m working on.

More to come on that project.

Is it really that hard out there? I used that phrase a couple of times the other day when describing dating.  It came about because of a situation that I wont really mention here but, is it really that hard out there.  Dating.  I’m not a dater. I have had friends that were and I envied them.  Not so much about the dating part but how simple it was.  Dont get me wrong I’ve had plenty. You ladies know who you are. Obviously they didn’t turn out exactly how I wanted but it was a learning process.  I dont believe that there is this one person out there. I do believe that the ultimate goal in life is not to be married.  That was a weird way to say that.  Anyway are some people that hard up.

It sucks when you can’t come up with anything. Today a co-worker of mine had us in a brainstorm meeting trying to come up with some videos for a summer thing we do.  I wish stuff came to me fast.  It doesn’t and some times I have to write it out and still I dont think its that good.  The people I work with are always coming up with good ideas. I on the other had come up with three good ideas a year. Sometimes its enough to live on and other times… Well I blow it.  I try to stay real quiet so I dont ruin other people’s thoughts. Ok this is getting long.

New t-shirt design. Let me know how many you want.

need to meet

I’m two days into the new blog. I feel like I didnt do anything today and I didnt start going through emails until I got home. That is not a good day. I had a little freak out moment when a bunch of the guys were in my office. Switching between creative…administrative..managerial…well you get the point. I felt I wasnt doing either of those well.  I just finished writing couple video ideas that I hope my partners will make better and I’m thinking about working on some photos.  I probably won’t ….I’ve been thinking of working out before bed but I think I will leave it for the morning and keep on my routine. As you can tell I’m starting to shut down.  I’m planning on visiting a church this weekend.  More on that later. (That’s what you say when you doing really want to talk about it but you like bringing it up)

So they’ve been saying that people more easily talk about financial problems. I’m not about to start but I was talking to Hannah the other day about a great This American Life that gave us a great break down of how we got to where we are. Dont worry it’s not a partisan thing. I’ll link it here. Giant Pool of Money Then once you listen to that. Here is one on the banking system real cool. I’m actually in the middle of this one. Bad Bank Well I hope this helps. Hey keep you chin up.  I’ll tell you about my dating life in the next post. That’ll cheer you up.

I remember what I was going to write about my friends AAron and BUsh are in Haiti doing something very ultra cause driven for compassion. Well they told us to tell others so here is me telling others.  If you want to follow them

BLOG & TWITTER LINKS:
bush blog: www.stevenbush.org
bush twitter: www.twitter.com/stevenbush
ivey blog: www.aaronivey.com
ivey twitter: www.twitter.com/aaronivey

I just got word that they didnt make it to Haiti today…weather.

Got to get to bed

Well it’s been a while since I’ve written anything substantial. I think because I realize that I never really take the time to read all the words that someone takes the time to write so…. It’s hard for me to imagine…well..you get the point.  I spent the weekend at conference tour.  I could see a little bit in Travis on how I felt at times when I was on the road last year.  ( oh and this could be just me but it will help me with my point)  When you are us Travis knows what I’m talking about you feel a bit like you’re out there all by yourself.   You’re with this group of people that you actually like and want the best for but they aren’t your friends. Things will end and they will go on their way.  So here you are every week somewhat floating out there.  I know that many times I felt lonely I guess is the word.  At the end of the week you crawl back to your apartment out house only to do it all over again.   That can be exhausting. So you like it when people visit its like having friends over. I got to visit and soon it will be me.  So yeah I think I saw that today.
I also realized something that has nothing to do with what I just told you so suck it up. Anyway. Here’s a 25 things kinda thing.  I still feel like I’m 25…yeah weird right. Mentally not physically I guess.  I wonder if it’s because I started full time around that age at the place I work now. ( I know I never say the name  but most know suck that up too) OK I had a point. Well I went around today meeting people on this conference thing (do you like how I just went back to that) and one meeting stuck out in my mind…It was a girl…She was telling me about where she was in life.  She was here doing this thing and didn’t know if she wanted to do this thing again or go find something else to do. She said she had this degree …History I think and that she didn’t know what she would do with that..maybe business because she thought people like that type of degree because you know research.  (I’m going somewhere with this)  I didn’t give any advice or anything….remember I’m still mentally 25 but if I did here is what I would say….Why Do you feel like you have to do anything….I think she has a little of that already but I’m sure there are world pressures that say “You finished college so what now?” Listen..You have the opportunity right now before cars and debt and houses and all the crap that we pile up on ourselves to take a different route. I would say be the envy of all your friends when you say “Yeah I was helping migrant workers in southern California sign up for healthcare” (I’m the envy of all my conservative friends) or “yeah I taught English in Thialand and now I’m im digging wells in Togo (that’s a place right)  and I don’t even know how to dig a well” Do you get what I’m saying.  Some of us it isn’t too late, I did say “isn’t” too late. We are just too scared I’m too scared….I think coward is the word….Ok this is at the point where I stop reading so how is this for an abrupt ending peace.

Today

So today i’m in a bit of a fog. But what I’ve learned is that you just have to get through it. I came back last night.  All my dearst friends came to meet me at the airport. It was a festive scene.  A little joke.  No it was good to be home….I left a bit of a mess so I’m going to clean up a bit today before I head to houston.  I dont remember the last time that I was there.  Ok so I worked on a couple pics so you will need to put your own story to these. Oh that be a better writer thing is not working out.

So there you go.

Kenya Baby

I first wanted to show you the woman who kicked me in the teeth. This my friends is Faith…My Hero. She is a LDP student which stands for drum roll… Leadership Development Program.  She is the best of the best…. Making a difference. When We interviewed her one of the questions I asked was “So what’s the LDP program?” She said “Its more than a program its a family.” This compassion thing works.

I dont have too much to write. We were in Maasai country today. They are probably the most famous tribe in Africa. If you have seen any doc on africa you’ve seen them. We had a chance to visit a traditional home.  OK this is where I just start posting pictures.

Kenya_day 1

OK there is a story behind these pictures I will try to tell them. You may want to skip reading and just look. They tell a whole lot more than I do.

This is a mother daughter who have tested positive for HIV.  I wrote no stigma because one of the things that compassion does is teach people how to live with the virus without shame. This is a strong family.

Here we are being shown the daily regiment of pills that they each have to take. 9:00 in the morning and 9:00 at night.

Jared met his sponsored child today. His name is Paul. They became fast friends.

OK last one. This is how i feel right now. Got to get to bed. I’ll get some more on tomorrow

We saw some pretty cool stuff today. It ended with meeting the LDP students that will be heading our way soon.  Them being excited is an understatement. I spoke with Faith and I’m exhausted. I also had the biggest convicting question asked of me. She asked “What do you do at your church”  I said, “what do you mean?” She replied “How do you serve at your church?” I said “I go” How about that for a kick in the teeth” I would cuss here but I hear that I may have some visitors. . She then ran down the list of what she did. I am a failure.  Faith. How about that?

Twilight Zone

So tonight I decided to stay in. I was invited out by some great friends but I was enjoying the day so much… actually the week of “little contact” that I decided to just stay in.  I just saw one of my favorite episodes. “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder”   I should watch it more. If you are looking for lessons in story telling watch a couple of twilight zones.   You can call it science fiction. Actually I think they do but its more than that.  Even if you aren’t a lover of that stuff you can still sit and enjoy.  So if you are sitting at home right now or if you are looking for some new shows Twilight is your thing.

Ok back at it. I’m little the dvr go a little I got tired of commericals.

Christmas eve

Dear, drewfrancis.com

Sometimes I feel like going through you tube listing to people sing.  I try to find ones that have the least viewers and listen to them. Right now I’m going though that song Falling slowly….Amber I remember what song it was. Anyway Ive watched about 12 now.  guilty pleasure I guess.  Three post in one day. Excessive I think.

The house is real quite right now. Ive got the dvr on pause going on 1 minutes right now.  I made a plea out to twitter world for anyone who would like to help me be a better writer. I was serious about that. So many of my friends are better at that than I. So very quiet.  They say the way to attract readers is to have a single focus.  Well I’m sorry but I’m all you got. There is your single focus.  Very quiet. You ever make a list of the things that you wish you were good at.  You know a real list. I’m not talking about a new years resolution but something that you truly wish you were good at..maybe you have been fooling people. Sometimes I wonder if I’ve got a lot of people fooled. I have a sneaky suspicion that there are people out there that think that about me.  I dont talk about work here and that on purpose.  I learned something this past year.  Or a motto of sorts. Just do good work.  No ambition to move up or be the best the top control of this or that just to do good work. It is pretty freeing.  To try to do good work. Sometimes it means stepping out of the way or swallowing your pride and suck it up..(I think that means the same thing) well you know what I mean.  It helps ok so that’s the work talk.  That’s not really that vague.

real quiet.  So here is the list of things I wish I could do or do better.

1. Write

2. Sing

3. Play and instrument. Guitar would be great. i envy a lot of people

4. Taking Pictures with and without flash

5. Design

6. Workout intensity

7,  Better relationship with Lena (I know she reads this folks so settle down its true)

8. Family

9.  Phone talker (really need to work on that)

10. Friend

11.  Paint

12.  Carpentry

13. remember

14. ( I was going to stop at 13 but realized I could not do that.) Tell ( I wrote “her”…then “them”..) how I feel or felt

Merry Christmas

i was looking for a picture to end this with and this is what I found. I like this picture it was taken in SA during the safari.