Got to get to bed

Well it’s been a while since I’ve written anything substantial. I think because I realize that I never really take the time to read all the words that someone takes the time to write so…. It’s hard for me to imagine…well..you get the point.  I spent the weekend at conference tour.  I could see a little bit in Travis on how I felt at times when I was on the road last year.  ( oh and this could be just me but it will help me with my point)  When you are us Travis knows what I’m talking about you feel a bit like you’re out there all by yourself.   You’re with this group of people that you actually like and want the best for but they aren’t your friends. Things will end and they will go on their way.  So here you are every week somewhat floating out there.  I know that many times I felt lonely I guess is the word.  At the end of the week you crawl back to your apartment out house only to do it all over again.   That can be exhausting. So you like it when people visit its like having friends over. I got to visit and soon it will be me.  So yeah I think I saw that today.
I also realized something that has nothing to do with what I just told you so suck it up. Anyway. Here’s a 25 things kinda thing.  I still feel like I’m 25…yeah weird right. Mentally not physically I guess.  I wonder if it’s because I started full time around that age at the place I work now. ( I know I never say the name  but most know suck that up too) OK I had a point. Well I went around today meeting people on this conference thing (do you like how I just went back to that) and one meeting stuck out in my mind…It was a girl…She was telling me about where she was in life.  She was here doing this thing and didn’t know if she wanted to do this thing again or go find something else to do. She said she had this degree …History I think and that she didn’t know what she would do with that..maybe business because she thought people like that type of degree because you know research.  (I’m going somewhere with this)  I didn’t give any advice or anything….remember I’m still mentally 25 but if I did here is what I would say….Why Do you feel like you have to do anything….I think she has a little of that already but I’m sure there are world pressures that say “You finished college so what now?” Listen..You have the opportunity right now before cars and debt and houses and all the crap that we pile up on ourselves to take a different route. I would say be the envy of all your friends when you say “Yeah I was helping migrant workers in southern California sign up for healthcare” (I’m the envy of all my conservative friends) or “yeah I taught English in Thialand and now I’m im digging wells in Togo (that’s a place right)  and I don’t even know how to dig a well” Do you get what I’m saying.  Some of us it isn’t too late, I did say “isn’t” too late. We are just too scared I’m too scared….I think coward is the word….Ok this is at the point where I stop reading so how is this for an abrupt ending peace.